I don't think there is anyone on my friends list at Virginia Tech but my heart and prayers to go out to the families and friends of all those affected.
For me this hits incredibly close to home. I know several students at VT (all safely accounted for now), my grandparents are fanatic alumni, my great grandfather was actually a professor at VT for 40 years, my sister almost went there instead of VCU and it all happened in an engineering building, my sister's major. An engineering building - that is the image that makes me cry. Too close to home.
It also brings up all the feelings of Columbine, a time in my life I will never forget. We had just moved to Colorado and were literally 40 minutes from the school. I had just graduated high school so it was incredibly close and personal to me. There are times in your life when things happen and you can remember the moment you heard, the smells, the way the sun shone, the feelings and the tears. Columbine was one of those events in my life. I don't think I'm ready to relive it.
To be honest I've been staying away from the news for just that reason. I was listening to the radio and the press conferences on my way down to Richmond yesterday and had to turn it off. It was all the same, the same press conference, the same stupid reporter questions, the same need to blame the police instead of the shooter... so many memories.
Part of me wants to scream and say how could this happen? Why did it have to happen here? The other part of me knows full well why. Why not here? I had this discussion with a friend a few days ago, I forget now what the specific incident was we were talking about but I had to admit that I'm not surprised by man's depravity, I'm never really surprised. The Bible is clear about the fact that man is NOT basically good. The heart is deceitfully wicked. It is only God's grace, mercy and love and the laws that government places on society that keep us from chaos. We are not evolving into a better humanity rather it is a measure of God's grace that this sort of thing doesn't happen more often.
It isn't often that I share my intimate beliefs and thoughts on this journal but I thought was one of those times when it was appropriate. It's times like these we cling to our God, believing in faith that the Bible is true and that indeed "all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." and that God has a purpose and a plan, and can use even horror and despair for good. I’m so glad I have Him to lean on, cling to and hope in; I couldn’t do this on my own.