Jenny La Fleur
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the tradgey at VT
I don't think there is anyone on my friends list at Virginia Tech but my heart and prayers to go out to the families and friends of all those affected.

For me this hits incredibly close to home. I know several students at VT (all safely accounted for now), my grandparents are fanatic alumni, my great grandfather was actually a professor at VT for 40 years, my sister almost went there instead of VCU and it all happened in an engineering building, my sister's major. An engineering building - that is the image that makes me cry. Too close to home.

It also brings up all the feelings of Columbine, a time in my life I will never forget. We had just moved to Colorado and were literally 40 minutes from the school. I had just graduated high school so it was incredibly close and personal to me. There are times in your life when things happen and you can remember the moment you heard, the smells, the way the sun shone, the feelings and the tears. Columbine was one of those events in my life. I don't think I'm ready to relive it.

To be honest I've been staying away from the news for just that reason. I was listening to the radio and the press conferences on my way down to Richmond yesterday and had to turn it off. It was all the same, the same press conference, the same stupid reporter questions, the same need to blame the police instead of the shooter... so many memories.

Part of me wants to scream and say how could this happen? Why did it have to happen here? The other part of me knows full well why. Why not here? I had this discussion with a friend a few days ago, I forget now what the specific incident was we were talking about but I had to admit that I'm not surprised by man's depravity, I'm never really surprised. The Bible is clear about the fact that man is NOT basically good. The heart is deceitfully wicked. It is only God's grace, mercy and love and the laws that government places on society that keep us from chaos. We are not evolving into a better humanity rather it is a measure of God's grace that this sort of thing doesn't happen more often.

It isn't often that I share my intimate beliefs and thoughts on this journal but I thought was one of those times when it was appropriate. It's times like these we cling to our God, believing in faith that the Bible is true and that indeed "all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." and that God has a purpose and a plan, and can use even horror and despair for good. I’m so glad I have Him to lean on, cling to and hope in; I couldn’t do this on my own.

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olde_fashioned From: olde_fashioned Date: April 17th, 2007 07:55 pm (UTC) (link)
This is all so horrible, I don't really know what to say. I'm sorry about all the bad memories for you, Jenny, but I'm grateful no one in your life was involved in this. As soon as I heard my first thoughts were for you and your sister, but thankfully God kept you all safe.

I truly hope no one tries to pin this on the police -- this was the fault of the murdering shooter, no one else. I can't imagine how they felt having to deal with all the wounded and worse. God help all the families of the students.

Prayerfully some good will come of all this -- we have become a godless society and this is just one of the many symptoms.

As for your beliefs, I agree 110% with all of what you said, and I for one am glad you decided to share with us. I hope God soothes your pain, Jenny.
jennylafleur From: jennylafleur Date: April 18th, 2007 01:06 am (UTC) (link)
Thanks for your words and your prayers. All of VA is reeling to a certain extent, VT is a huge school and is mostly in-state students so there are few communities unaffected.

There are already calls for the president of VT and the police chief to be fired which is just unfair. You don't arrive at a murder scene in a dorm and assume a killing spree is about to begin. Next we will hear about how bad this kid's life was and how it really wasn’t his fault or he was in some twisted way justified in his feelings. Just like Columbine. *sigh* But anyway...

God is still God and His mercy is new every morning. Thanks again. :>
olde_fashioned From: olde_fashioned Date: April 18th, 2007 04:12 am (UTC) (link)
You're welcome! I know I can't do anything to help anyone but that doesn't stop me from wishing. You're right -- God is still God.
girliegirl32786 From: girliegirl32786 Date: April 17th, 2007 08:43 pm (UTC) (link)
*many, many hugs*
jennylafleur From: jennylafleur Date: April 18th, 2007 01:07 am (UTC) (link)
*hugs back* Thanks dear friend!
suededsilk From: suededsilk Date: April 17th, 2007 10:26 pm (UTC) (link)
I'm not sure what to say, except that I'm incredibly grateful that all of you weren't involved and that I'm horribly sorry that all of this happened.
jennylafleur From: jennylafleur Date: April 18th, 2007 01:12 am (UTC) (link)
Thank you. *hugs*
lahoo88 From: lahoo88 Date: April 19th, 2007 06:57 am (UTC) (link)
Thank you so much for sharing this especially as it is so close to your heart - I agree with you 100%.

You have mentioned a few things here and there through out your journals and have always wanted to share you that I have a deep faith in Christ as well. As far as I am aware I am alone in costuming circles here in Australia, so it has been really refreshing to know there is someone else in the world who loves God and costuming and in that order.
jennylafleur From: jennylafleur Date: April 19th, 2007 02:59 pm (UTC) (link)
Thank you and thank you for sharing your faith with me too. As believers in the Bible and Jesus Christ we are in the minority, period. You are right though; it is nice to know there are others involved in the things you love who share your view of life and eternity. It's always a comfort to find a 'kindred spirit'. :>
From: (Anonymous) Date: April 20th, 2007 03:14 am (UTC) (link)

Jenny, you don't know me, but I just had to say thanks for sharing your faith on your journal. It's encouraging to know that there really are people out there who are Christians >and< are interested in costuming. :-)

May God comfort and be near you in this horrific time. It's terrible that these things have to happen, but God always has a purpose for whatever He does and allows.

God bless,
'Thomasina "Tom" Blonde-adill'
jennylafleur From: jennylafleur Date: April 20th, 2007 03:10 pm (UTC) (link)
Amen. And thanks. :>
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